“You know what’s wrong with us? You are. You build us up. You make us feel like we have a chance. You make us feel special, and then when we don’t expect it,
you knock us down.
And you don’t even realize (or care) that you have just crushed us in this way… In a way that you feel it from the deepest part of your chest.
You feel everything inside of you crumble and its all you can do to keep it all at bay. To not let it overflow and pour out.
Here’s the thing: we don’t let people into our beds without letting them into our hearts. We don’t let people into our guarded worlds without letting them into our hearts.
We don’t let people in… we don’t let you in without giving you this part of ourselves that no one else has.
A part that we don’t give very often, if ever. Of course we’ll lie about what we’re feeling; why would you want to be the only person in this letting down guards?
Why would you want to be the only person hurting? You fake a smile. You fake making it. You fake it because its easier to pretend that nothing hurts.
Its easier to pretend that you didn’t love this person
. Its easier to pretend that the sweet moments, the sweet words, the longing, the wishing,
the hoping all along the way was nothing more than something we made up because we all know its better to be delusional than lied to.
Don’t worry though, eventually we’ll move on and you’ll be nothing more than a faded memory.”